Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Highlights from AOC...

- SINGING!
- Worship time.
- Meeting new people.
- Good discussions.
- Amazing food.
- Watching Veggie Tales with Katie, Lexi and Janelle. :-)
- Talking 'til 1 AM about...well...you know, stuff.
- Laughing 'til it hurt.
- Sitting with Naomi during the sectionals...haa you rock!
- Singing Amazing Grace (bass) with Janelle while the guys screeched uh, soprano???
- Coffeehouse - guitar - drums - piano - banjo - it all rocked!
- Eating 'til I couldn't anymore.
- Running around in the rain.
- Jamming.
- Spilling desert on my pants just before our performance. :-D
- Having Marie, Matt, Pete, Isaac, Ben and Albert coming to hear us, thanks guys!!
- Ohhh...and SQUARE DANCING was definitely one of the highlights!! Yuh. Pretty much.

What else...??? Haaa going to Tim's afterwards. Kay, it took like, 1/2 hour just to find the stupid thing, and then another 15 minutes to wait in line to order...another 10 minutes for the disgustingly watered down cappuccino to cool off so I could actually drink it. :-P But...it was fun as always. AOC is incredible, and I know for those of you who haven't gone, you probably think we're all crazy but really, you gotta go, gotta experience it all because it's not about the performance, it's not about Saturday night, it's about the whole weekend, it's about God, it's about lifting your voices together in praise to Him. I can't tell you how awesome it sounds to have a sanctuary filled with young people clapping their hands, swaying, and singing at the top of their lungs. It's just awesome. And that was AOC 2008, I know I left out a lot of stuff, but, needless to say, it was amazing and I can't wait until next year.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Random Song I Wrote...

I know it's kind of weird but I just felt like writing...it's a rap song. :-P So feel the rhythm as you're singin' it to yerself. :-)

I’m gonna tell you something
That I’ve told no one before
If you’ll bare with me
And listen carefully
You might be able to find out
What’s tearin’ me up inside


So here’s the truth,
I’m telling it to you now
I’m filled with self-doubt
Every moment of every day
I wish that I could find some way
Some how
To make this end
So I don’t have to pretend
That I’m okay when I’m really not.
Yeah it’s all I got, it’s all I got

I don’t really know who I am
It’s kinda sad when I think about it
‘Cause I’m lost in the nothingness of who I am inside
It’s when I close my eyes that I realize
I’ve got nothing
And no one to keep me sane
I admit I’m scared deep in my soul
That I will never
Amount to anything at all.


I’m sick of all this fakeness
People don’t care no more
They just pretend to be someone they’re not
And it kills me to think that you
Weren’t there to see me through
That you just left when I needed you most.

And now I’m lying here alone
Wishing I wasn’t on my own
I wear a smile on my face
But I want you to know
That deep inside I'm bleeding
The gaping whole is getting bigger
My heart is cold and grey
And I'm left here with this empty feeling
'Cause I got no where to go.

I remember the days when I thought somebody cared
But now when I look at you
You just stare back like I’m a nobody
Like you never knew me before
Tell me please, why do you act this way
It’s not my fault that I’m still alive today
It’s not my choice to go or to stay.

I’m looking for a friend
Not someone who’s pretend
I want you to stick with me til the end
Help me through the pain
I know there’s not much to gain
But I think
In the end you’ll be happy
That you helped a loner like me.
So stay with me a while
‘n I’ll tell you the story behind this fake smile...


Sunday, April 06, 2008

Update...

So...sadly, the boarding season has officially ended for me. :'( But...it was an awesome last time. I went on Wednesday night with Peter and even though the lift wasn't running and we had to hike the park for like two and a half hours, it was fun, and I have some sweet pictures. I’m already looking forward to next year, although I have no idea where I’ll get a pass to, seeing as we’ll probably have moved by then. :-S

Anyways...yeah, procrastination. I'm so pro at that man. :-) Kay so for English last week, we had our ISU due on Friday. Wednesday we had to do our presentation, basically just had to talk about this book we read and explain some decorated box thingy which was our visual aid. Anywho, Thursday I only had music in the morning, had spares the rest of the day. Guess what I did? Worked on that gay ISU from pretty much 10:30-4:30. Talk about messing up your brain. I swear, it was seriously just a mass of jelly by the time I was done 'cause the stupid thing was 18 pages. English sucks.

And I had to figure out a way to get this assignment to a friend to hand in because our band was going to Port Hope the next day for the band festival. So I was all worried about her forgetting to hand it in and all that...'cause I would get a nice fat zero if it didn't get handed by Friday. But thankfully she remembered...

Friday…was pretty awesome. Our bus was supposed to arrive at 8:30 to take our band to Port Hope. But...I dunno if he forgot about us or what, but he didn't show up until like 8:50 and the festival started at 9:15. :-P It was sweet though. Pretty much all morning we got to sit in a gym and listen to other bands perform, and perform ourselves too. There were so many amazing performances...a song one band did was 10 minutes long, literally. It was insane, and really good too. I thought we did a sweet job, except that I squeaked a few times with my lil clarinet. lol, but no one heard.


Around 1 we headed out for Swiss Chalet. I was sitting at a table with two other girls, and the waitress kept calling us 'babes.' Yeah...it was really disturbing. And next time any of you go there to eat...you gotta get their chocolate cheesecake desert. It's heavenly. :-)

Nothing else is really exciting in my life right now. I was home alone for the weekend so Matt, Marie and Pete came down last night and we hung out, watched a movie and stuff. For the rest...I have nothing really to look forward to except...school. Yay. (sarcastically.)

Catch yah later...
AND LEAVE COMMENTS PEOPLE! I know you're out there...

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Attempt to ski...

Alright, I know that this is old, but I really want to post on Snow Valley just so when I'm old some day far in the future I can look back and kill myself laughing. :-)

So...Monday morning, I woke up at 5:30, got dressed and yeah all that stuff. We took Kate and Micael, Matt, and Pete so there were seven of us in the mini van, and Mrs. Allin followed me up. I was driving, and the whole way, my mom and I were 'fighting' over the songs. :-) I'd put in a cd, skip to a song I liked, and as soon as it would get loud or screamo or stuff like that, she'd turn it off. Twas fun. Meanwhile, the others amused themselves with playing X and O's on the fogged up windows, and drawing weird things.

I got kind of bored driving, seeing as I couldn't even listen to an entire song I liked, so I began passing people when I really didn't need to. I was driving in the far left hand lane, and there was a car a few meters ahead of me in the middle lane. So, I switched over all the way to the right, passed him, and then moved back over to the far left hand lane again. Mrs. Allin probably thought I was on crack or something, but hey, had to stay awake somehow. ;-)

We got to Snow Valley and pretty much I slept for the first hour we were there. We were early so it's not like we could start boarding or anything anyways. After we got our blue stripes, we did two runs, and then Pete and I went to get our skis. Okay, the line up was insane. We budded into the boot room, you know, just said excuse me politely until we made our way through. :-) It was funny, we had no idea how the sizes worked so we just started randomly throwing ones on that looked like they would fit. Then my sister came in and was like 'the first number indicates the size...' so yeah, we got our boots. Talk about easy to get on, way less complicated than snowboard boots, but not near as comfy. :-P So, then we get into the line for the ski rentals. The line up was rediculously long!!!! We waited a full hour almost, just getting our rentals. Okay, we're standing in line and all of a sudden Peter was like, "EW! Gross, imagine how many hundreds of people's feet have been in here before ours?" Yeah, talk about a disgusting thought. But then I confidently replied and said they probably wash them out after every day. (They do, right???)

Yeah. So, we take our stuff outside, and the laughter begins. Just watching Peter put them on made me keel over with laughter. He looked absolutely hilarious!!! Not to mention myself. So we started pushing ourselves towards the lift. What a weird feeling, it probably took 5 minutes just to get from the doors to the ski lift. And then we got to the top. There were a bunch of people waiting to go down, and since we were noobs, we wanted to be sure no one would be in our way. The chance came, and I slithered down to the top of Family. Then Peter fell and lost his ski...great. Tried putting it on, unsuccessfully. So he walked back with it to the top where it was flat, and finally got it on again. My sister and Melissa came along then...and made us look like even bigger fools. We made it down a little further, and then EVERYONE came. Talk about embarrassing. Anyways, to sum it up, Pete had no clue what he was doing, I didn't either, really, but I managed to make it down only falling once. He, on the other hand, lost a ski twice. Hehe. It was pretty much the funniest thing ever, I laugh just thinking about it now. And each time he or I fell, we'd just stand there forever, as if somehow we would magically just appear at the bottom of the hill. Once we made it down to the bottom, a good half hour later, we were like 'the heck with this' and pretty much as fast as we could, got rid of those cursed things and strapped on our boards. It felt so good to be riding a board again...I can't even tell you...

Unfortunately, we were all tired, and extremely lazy that day. I mean, how many times didn't we just plop our butts down on the hill and sit there for what, 10 minutes at a time? Suntanning...throwing snow...laughing. Yeah, good times.

Another thing that comes to mind is the t-shirt run, and how Peter collided with the Chinese skier dude who had not a clue what he was doing. We killed ourselves laughing man, I mean, I laughed non-stop pretty much the whole ride to the top of the hill after that run. Pretty much the funniest thing ever!

Yeah, and then the wait at the hospital at the end of the day. Kate had cracked her chin and my mom got a ride to the hospital, but I had to pick them up. After driving down Snow Valley road for a while, we came to a subdivision and I was like 'uhhh...' I wasn't thinking and forgot to make a left to get to the 400, but we found it no problem after that. We got to the hospital and my mom was anxiously waiting. You know how at emergancy entrances there's like a circle drive? Well, I drove around it twice while she was standing there b/c earlier she told me 'yeah just drive around for a while don't park there'. Okay, maybe it's not funny when you read it, but at the time we were killing ourselves.

We waited for like an hour and a half at the hospital. We had gone to Timmy's to get my mom a coffee...and Peter and I went in to give it to her. It was great, he was carrying two coffees and then there was me, walking around in my snowpants. We walked into the waiting room and the place was like packed, and they were all looking at us kinda funny...I wonder why. So we turned around, went down another hall, and saw a sign for the x-ray room. I turned into a room 'cause I saw my mom and Kate, but a few seconds later, I realized that Peter wasn't there. I poked my head out the door and he's standing at the end of the hall with that 'what the heck!' expression on his face. It was priceless...

Anyways, it was an awesome last day at snow valley, even if we were dead tired, there was a lot of reason to laugh!!! Man, I can't believe the boarding season is almost over. This past one was probably the best season for me yet, it was amazing! I couldn't even count how many times I've been out, but I guess all good things do come to an end. The saddest thing...it will probably be my last year ever buying a season's pass at Kirby, seeing as we'll be moved next year. :-( What a depressing thought. But that's way in the future, guess I just gotta enjoy it while I still can...and sorry that this thing is so long. Oh, that last note I posted...I finally remembered what that number was for!!! It was a math page number. :-) It was horrible though, not being able to remember. Gah. Anyways, I'm going now!

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Scary...

Okay so...I think a week ago Wednesday it was, I had this really nasty fall at Kirby, like hit my head really hard. Ever since then, I have had trouble remembering things, like my best friend's name, etc. :-) Jusssssssst kiddin you. But really, I can't remember certain stuff anymore.

Anyways, it's been scaring me a bit lately, and I have this random number written in pen on my hand. I don't remember when I wrote it, probably today at some point, but I have no idea what it stands for. 278...that's the number. I have not a clue why it's there, and it keeps staring at me, you know in that peculiar way that all numbers stare at you? Yeaaah. It is driving me nuts and making me feel really dumb. Can you tell me what it means? lol

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I'm going insane and it's scaring the shmazzizzers out of me. :-) And probably you by now too. :-P